Watch me as I fall. It's close now.

I'm the most depressed I've ever been. I can't put up with all this shit anymore. I'm carrying so much shit on my shoulders and have been for a long time and it's just a matter of time until it all comes crashing down on me. It already is. My happiness is an empty void. Nothing can fill it permanently only temporarily as it makes it way deeper into the void. Then it disappears again and I'm left back at square one. I'm not smart, I'm not talented, I'm not anything. I'm a waste of space. And like most wastes of space I'm worthless. Everything I touch breaks. Everything I get near withers. Even God hates me. My family hates me. No one knows I exist. I'm like a fucking ghost. Can anyone hear me? Fuck no. I'm shivering uncontrollably and it's hot in this room. I have never been physically depressed before. What the hell is wrong with me. What the hell is right with me.